I'm leaving. Yep-it's time to start the next chapter of my life. I'm going to do it. Sometimes you have to do something that scares you a little to make a BIG life change.
On June 10 I will be entering FitRX for 2 weeks. I have been given the awesome opportunity by a good friend, Michael Cartwright, CEO of FitRX. He encouraged me to come for as long as I could and asked me to blog about it daily. When I asked him what it was like, he said, "think of it as biggest loser on steroids!" (Fitrxbrentwood.com). I was initially super excited. I still am...just the closer it actually gets, my social anxiety begins to creep in.
Let me go through my list of "what if's"-
-what if I don't like anyone there
-or worse what if no one likes me
-what if I don't fit in
-what if I can't physically do what they ask me to do
-what if I miss my family too much
-what if I get emotional a lot and cry
-what if I'm hungry
-what if I don't change......
And the list could go on. I know in my head this stuff is silly but it's hard to get that through to my heart sometimes. It feels like going to the first day of junior high.
I also feel guilt....for leaving my children and husband, for not going to see family with my time off, for taking off work, for doing something just for me when so many other people need things.
So there- it's out! I've spent this whole week mulling over all those things in my head and talking them out with friends and family and I think I'm moving back to excited. I really have never done anything just for me for that long in my whole life. It's a great time to start....a little worried about what the voices in my mind will be telling me without all the distractions but I think I'm ready to listen, and to change.
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